Divorce Support Forums: divoce i need one but cant afford a lawyer.

Ok, where to start. We separated 8 months ago; my husband makes 3 times what I do. I moved out of the house because he was becoming more and more volatile towards my son and me. He did not used to be an angry person but has become angrier in the last 2 years. He has a therapist convinced that he has no problem , however his therapist will not hear from anyone else it is a one sided thing. Anyhow I took care of this mans kids for 13 years. He was always at work he was never home. He essentially gave me his four kids and went to work, I was ok with this for the most part I did the mom thing with his four and my two and we even had another. (He has never really liked my oldest) however his four children were very needy their mom walked out on them and the oldest two always had issues. His son molested his daughter and his daughter tried fake suicide she looked up the pills she intended to take and then took the ones that would not hurt her. My husband blamed me for his children’s problems, I took it for a long time I thought maybe I could have been a better step mom but they were always so difficult. Nevertheless, I did it all parent teacher conferences, dr appointments; he never even knew what his kids were getting for Christmas or birthdays because he was so uninvolved. Anyhow I moved into a small two bedroom aptment with my original 2 and the youngest ours, this man makes 70,000 I make 26,000 and he has only paid me 200.00 a month for the last 3 months. Originally, he was not even doing that. He has kept me on his insurance because I am a sever asthmatic and I cannot afford the insurance through my work. I am attending school trying to do more. However, I have had to get some moneys from him and he now only pays me 100.00 a month because he is letting me pay him back...lol. I am just disgusted. I want to get a divorce but I think he will go for my little one and I cannot afford a lawyer. He can. He says he has to pay for his other two children (he has turned all but one of them against me) He is not caring for them just letting them run amuck. The youngest 15 year old was straight a student when I left now he will be lucky to get credits this semester. the youngest girl 16 year old has almost no credits this semester because she hasn't attended school much (she tells his she is sick) and he lets her stay home to the tune of more then 30 days. My baby goes to his house 4 out of the 5 days after school and he was ok with her coming home to the molester ,he said he wouldn’t do it again) that’s not what the docs said. Anyhow I threw a fit and hired daycare that he would not help with and he finally consented to making sure one of the others were there with her. Today I called to see if she made it home on time and she was nowhere to be found. I called the home which none of them answer (you would have to turn off the TV for that) When I finally did get an answer and said where the little one was I was told by his 16 year old (it is not my f**king responsibility to watch your daughter. I called the police. Her dad was not even aware she was missing. I found her 2 hours later at a friend’s house. I have grounded her for this because she did not tell anyone where she was going; he has already told her at his house she does not have to abide by the grounding. I really need a divorce because I need guidelines but I cannot afford one. I do not know what to do.