Divorce Support Forums: Made a decision

I told myself in January that if things didn't get better I would file for divorce. Well I feel like things have gotten better, there are still a lot of issues to deal with in my marriage, but I truly believe my wife wants to deal with them. I may need to be more assertive in making sure that they are dealt with, I'm talking about our relationship and how we relate and grow with each other in a healthy way.

I had a bit of an epiphany recently. At least for me, the real trust I had lost was trust in myself. I had lost my faith in my judgement. I have gained that "trust" back by realizing I have been a good husband and father. I am the type of person I wanted to be. I love my wife and the family we have built together and I am not going to give it up as long as she wants to work with me. I also have the trust and faith in myself to know that if we are unable to continue to grow together, I will be fine growing apart.

I think the best advice for anyone is to be the type of person you admire the most. Every spiritual faith I have been exposed to seems to have that same theme as a fundemental basis, "do unto others", "karma" etc.

I love the ironies in life, I will never be the person I want to be completely, because I never want to stop growing. I tell the kids on my soccer teams that if they never make mistakes, they aren't trying hard enough. That means you have to be willing to forgive mistakes in yourself and others if you are ever going to accomplish anything.

So thanks to those who have provided me with the insite into their lives, it has helped to gain wisdom from others and to feel like I am not alone. Thanks to those who read my rantings, they have been theraputic to me. I hope those who want to "prevent" have a partner that wants the same are successful and if not, they come to understand that they can be strong and healthy on their own.

By the way, even though it doesn't show here I actually have a sense of humor, everytime I review my own writings I almost puke at the drama queen coming out at me, but I am being honest above.