Hi my name is Sharon. I've been lurking and reading posts. I wasn't too sure where to post this and I guess this is the closest to my circumstances.

I havent yet mentioned the 'd' word to husband. I have been sitting on that fence for some time though. Years actually. Though our relationship has been rocky and not really much of a relationship for the past 10 or so years. Ours is a his, mine and ours family with 9 children total. We have been married for 16 years and have had 4 children together. 3 are still at home. Two moved out quite early because of the mental and emotional abuse. One still at home has recently attempted suicide and come to find out it is because of not being able to deal emotionally with dad. She would rather go back to stay in the hospital she tells me than to be at home. He is very manipulative and I have only within the last 3-5 years really seen things for what they are. NOW the kids tell me...he acts differently when I am gone versus when I am home. He is not physically abusive. Though sometimes I think that would be less damaging. Our youngest is 8 and is a total daddies girl. Which he encourages. Leaving is going to tear her apart, but it is long past time. It has been so long since I have been on my own I am terrified. Any issues between us he seems to take out on everyone. I have nobody for support other than coworkers and I prefer not to bare my soul to those I have to work with. Due to his antisocial personality I have no friends and have pretty much not had much contact with family for the last 15 years.
I am really just looking for somewhere to vent, cry and get a little support...maybe a few suggestions here and there.

Thank you everyone in advance.
Sharon