i consider myself both lucky and a fool.....all contact was over the phone and thru my children whom he constantly places in the middle of all this!!!i trusted the man i was with for 18 years whom had always been mentally abisive but only recently physical....he knew all the right things to say...swore he was no longer using steroids,said he would check himself into an inpatient treatmrnt center that day...told my children and myself he was going to hang himself...my children were blaming me...i caved... i was wrong....i trusted him and let him manipulate me and my children again...i wanted the man i married back and clearly i have learned he is no longer that man...i am now back to starting all over and trying to move on...i have a hearing on monday to try to reinstate the old restraining order...pray for me and my children we need it....