My husband has choked me in front of my friends, mother, and son. He has smacked me in the face while driving with my son in the back of the car. He has been violent for some time now. I have in the past gotten a RO but the police did nothing the three times he dropped by the house. They are useless....he came over and called me whenever he felt like it. He has a serious drug problem and is the worst person I have ever met. I know I need to eave and go somewhere else but where I live I could not afford an aprtment or anything by myslef. Shelters around here are out of the question. I just keep letting him shit on me every day.

I really feel bad for my son. I am not the mother I want to be because of my husbands behavior and he is not a father at all unless he is high and feels good at the moment. He is either High and nice or comming down and everyone better walk on eggshells or all hell will be released. Keep in mind he is 6'8" tall and about 290 lbs. The cops know who he is and when ever we call they always send the biggest cops to our home.

I hate my life and I hate not being able to get rid of him.

Thanks for letting me vent.