Thanks to everyone that responded. It has taken me a few days for your replies to sink in. I guess when your in the situation you don't see how bad it is until you have people like Out of Control tell you that your situation is much worse.

Looking back, it must be a symptom of sexual abusers because my husband would molest me repeatedly while he was asleep and I was constantly pushing him away at night. The next morning he would not even remember doing it.

I appreciate the support and will continue to keep you all updated on my progress. I had my divorce filed on Feb. 28th and he is living in an apartment. Keep me and my boys in your thoughts and prayers.