Make plans to leave enough with this monster..he won't get better..but you will put yourself in a bad place staying and for your childerns sake..have him arrested..I am living proof that they never get better...39yrs later...and the fear was just as real...but you reach the point when you have to deal with yourself and you don't want this either ..I ended up hating myself for staying..there is no good reason for staying..if leaving is a problem the police will gladly escort him to jail..and all you have to do is get a court order to keep his distance and you in the house and him paying the bills.I did..never looked back..in fact the relief of him gone was so powerful to me..I finally had a reason to wake up again and finally I got some sleep .

Mine was cheating too..rotten rots even worse on their own..no one to blame but themselves..your not taking anymore blame for someone else..you will be alright..you deserve to be treated like the decent person you are..keep posting that helps so much..your not alone..