I always find the comments interesting by all the people that are trying to help you. Bottom line, help yourself. Everyone deserves to wake up in the morning and look forward to a new day. Everyone deserves to go to sleep at night without fear. I hope you decide for yourself and /or your children to move forward. After your rather short term marriage, you should be able to do so. Don't wait like I did and find out when it is too late that there are so many bad days behind you that you can't forget. I wish you the best of luck. Please, do something for yourself.