Yeah, it's tough, but I know one day there will be some light at the end of the tunnel. With three young kids, the last thing on my list is a divorce right now. It would be destructive to the kids and with the court system the way it is, I'd probably be living in a cardboard box under a bridge for the next 15+ years (if not in jail). If I knew my wife would be civil with a divorce, I'd be in a lawyer's office today. But she has mentioned to me on several occasions that if we ever got a divorce, she would do absolutely EVERYTHING in her power to ruin me - including making sure I'd never see the kids again.

At first, I would only listen - obey - the best I could, while a full gambit of emotions ran through me. "This is the woman I loved so dearly just a few short years before?" But as time slowly crept on, I began to pick myself up and started taking a more assertive stance, because I knew IF things were to end between us and IF things would start developing her way afterwards, I would use every means possible to fight back. And, I let her know it.

So, I suck it all up and bide my time. As the last one leaves the nest, I know my NEW life will have just begun.

BTW, I could care less what people here think of me as a person. Honestly, I've never met any of them in person and I doubt I ever will. They can agree with what I say or disagree - it is their decision. Life has hardened me to the point where being PC to keep the water's calm is a fruitless struggle in a finite existence. Would people rather me be fake or be honest? It's funny, because I've gotten many PM's from people who would rather tell me privately than publicly they respect my honesty (although, they may disagree with what I said). And then I've gotten some other PM's ...