[quote]I already am. I dont think words can describe how disgusted i feel with myself right now. [/quote]

Admitting that you have a problem and getting help for it is a major step towards not doing it again.

You can't do anything about the past, but you can (and are) doing something about the future.

And that is something that you should be proud of. Not everyone would admit what you have done and take steps to stop it.