It just seems to me that i have a particular nasty streak. Im not violent towards my wife but i do make hurtful and sarcastic comments on a daily basis. Looking back she has done all she can to help and support me and all i've done is hurt and abuse her for a number of years. Only now am i realising that my life is running parralel to my fathers, (he was abusive to my mother but on a much larger scale}, he died at 64 years old, a lonley and hopeless alcoholic. I think i've identified the reasons why i've behaved like i have and am takeing steps to stop it but its too little to late for my wonderful missus. I truley feel like i have nothing left and im so so sorry.