"I know i have to realize one thing that it is not love, but really it hurts and I have to understand he do not want me."

Of course it hurts to fall in love with ONE man...and lose him to his anger,abuses and betrayals!

This is NOT about your WORTH! It is about his insecurities and low self esteem...and instead of rescuing him...he took you down WITH HIM!

Now you are left to pick up the pieces alone.

Is that love? I don't think it is.

Please do not misunderstand me.It is not YOU he doesn't want...it is WOMEN he defies and feels contempt for his OWN reasons.This was not personal, this is just how he RELATES to ALL women in most likelihood!
Please do NOT blame yourself for HIS behaviors...only your reactions to them.

Sometimes we feel like we are 'in love'...unfortunately....when we are abused over long periods of time...we become lost in thier issues......our loyalties become confused...and our hearts and minds suffer at the hands of our abusers.

I always wished that my H would just STOP hurting me...and stop claiming to love me afterwards.

It didn't make any sense.

No man is worth crying over..and the ones who are..don't make us cry.

I am sorry for your pain.

Remember...never make anyone your priority..when they only make YOU an option!

Heart On