I'm sorry you are in the situation you are in. I, like you, was verbally and physically abused. You need to realize, no one deserves to be treated like that. It's wrong. Do not put yourself back into that situation. It's not easy to be without him because being with him was within your "comfort zone." and change is hard. Not knowing what your future holds is a scary thing too. He definitely needs counseling and you need separate counseling. I believe the abuse will only get worse so please be careful. Think of your safety and that of your child. Good luck to you.