yours is the first post to make me want to cry, i've been there, so very there.

My hell began Oct 06 when I figured out he was having an affair with a family friend, yes our children play together and we had cook outs. we had a huge fight that night, i told him i could get over it if it was done and all that really mattered was if he still wanted me. it took too long to decide but for 11 months (and 25 lost pounds)we tried to work it out and for a while i thought we would then in Sept 07 out of the blue he announed he thought he might want a divorce. meanwhile i had tried to talk to my sister about what was going on and she immediately said 'what have you done now? don't you know how much he loves you?' so no support there. any way it took him over a week to decide he wanted a divorce and i made it quick and easy for him, just like i always had, gave him just what he wanted. in jan 08 i moved out and discovered he was seeing her again. the divorce was final the end of feb. and i have come to realize that he is no longer the man i was in love with, still am in love with, but i get thru knowing that person i divorced, may have the same face and name as the person i love but it isn't him.