I don't know how you made it to a hospital and under the proper care but you made it through the worst time in your life and you were strong enough to survive. NEVER FORGET THAT. Your depression won't go away by itself, that would be like saying diabetes will go away by itself with out doing anything about it. But by the same token this is a medical condition and it didn't happen because of anything you did wrong. What happened is a symptom of the condition. You survived that symptom and now you make it one step at a time till the symptoms start to fade with the help of medication and support from counsellors and friends and us here if you need us.

I am so glad you came here and I just hope you will come away with 1/4 of some of the hope and friendship I have found here when I have been at my lowest. People I have never met and most likely may never meet have been the most understanding and patient when I have been so screwed in the head I just keep beating my head on that brick wall and making the same mistake over and over. Even then I am still accepted and even welcomed for the advice I can give from my experiences. I know a few weeks from now you will be able to supply someone on the verge of making that same decision that you did with your insight and the benefit of experience.

Good luck and you can always PM me or anyone anytime you just want to chat.(I have lived with depression for years and my stbx also attempted suicide a couple of times so I have some personal experience with the issues)

Christine