This morning began with an upset stomach and a bout of weeping. I miss my stbx so much that it has become a physical pain. He has been gone for almost 4 months and I am missing him more and more instead of getting used to him being gone. I am doing things to keep myself busy, but this is usually the time of year when we are planning our annual summer vacation and I can't imagine getting through the summer without him in my life. I know I will survive this too, but why does everything I do just remind me that I am doing it alone and that he isn't here? I have never felt so alone or lonely, even though I have friends who I talk to regularly, not hearing his voice leaves me feeling completely empty. I am posting here instead of calling him because I know that would only make it worse.

Very PainedPatty