Hi Patty,
I know how you feel. Being apart from my stbx hurts so much for me as well. And, since the beautiful weather is starting to come, it just makes it ten times worst. You know Patty, you seem like such a wonderful, caring, and considerate woman. If your stbx doesn't realize it, then he is an idiot. So, keep that in the back of your mind when you are feeling this way. You are so much better without him. He took you for granted and if he doesn't realize what he had, then he is the one that lost out. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Just know that it will get better and in the future, when you are ready, you will find somebody that will give you the attention that you need, and the love that you are so deserving of.