[quote]It does get better, I know you are tired of hearing that. I was the same way till the papers were signed. That was the worst day, the pain was almost unbearable, the crying at my loss, the dispair of what I just did but then.....

Flash foward to today, only 4 days after the signing, I saw her this morning at my son's baseball game, she is sporting an engagement ring from the guy she left me for, he was there with her, her parents were semi gloating over what they percieved as her victory of taking me to the cleaners.....what did I feel? A huge sense of relief that is was done, didn't cry when me and the kids left, wasnt upset in the least bit, am actually in a great mood. I hope for my kids sake that her relationship with the new guy works out and they make it.

There really is life after divorce, you don't believe it now and neither did I, but there really is a life just waiting for you to reach and grab hold of it with both hands and hang on. [/quote]

Patty I am going to hold numbs to this assessment because I am exactly where you are to a degree. I am lonely and I miss having someone there to talk to. Unfortunately my stbx has not been there for me for years. I have known in my heart that we have not been friends for a long time and even in our marriage I was lonely for that someone who I could share with and know I was supported. I just feel so hopeless that at the very least 1/2 my life is over and since I haven't been very successful at finding a partner so far the odds are that I will spend a lot more time alone. I am starting to like myself again though and enjoying not walking on eggshells for a change.

Wow sorry Patty I was supposed to be here giving you support not starting our own pity party. I hate it when it rains because I get really depressed and depressing. On the bright side tomorrow is supposed to be sunny again and I would bet if I came back then I would be a lot less negative. Maybe we both need a nice walk in the sunshine with our puppies. (((hugs)))

Christine