Okay a little refresher for the oldies here and to let the newbies know some of what has happened to get me here.

My ex and I got married in 2000. He cheated on me once and I forgave him. He cheated again and I couldn't forgive him a second time. We seperated in November 2007 and our divorce was final on June 3rd.

Okay... so now he isn't with anyone and neither am I. He says he knows he f'd up and has been wanting me back since the end of January.

Well we have remained friends and get along fine. This past Tuesday I went to his apt to pick up our son. My ex had his other son from his other ex wife there so I decided to make him his favorite meal (tator tot casserole) before my son and I left. My son fell asleep on the floor, my ex-stepson fell asleep on the love seat and my ex fell asleep in the chair. I got done fixing the dinner and put it in the oven. There was no where to sit so I went to my ex's bedroom and layed on his bed. He woke up and came in there and started rubbing my back. It felt so good to have the gentle touch of a man again... well one thing led to another and well I guess you can figure out what happened next.

I feel so ashamed, I feel so bad that I let this happen. I just keep thinking how and why did I let that happen. It just makes me so upset with myself.

Okay... thanks for listening, I had to get that off my chest.

Am I a horrible person though??

Michelle