Kent-

I'm another teacher. My STBX is one also. I am teaching summer school as well and I do go out with a lot of friends so I don't find myself dwelling on the situation. I don't know that it is healty to just sit an stew in the situation longer than you have to.

But yeah, I'm with you on wanting to call the stbx. Mine still lives with me, and that really makes it impossible for me to move on. But today, she's gone and won't be back 'til tomorrow. The story is the same as yours. I miss hearing her voice. Even if she was hurtful by constantly shutting out the world around her.

I kind of have been trying to follow your particular situation and I think you and I have a lot in common. PM me if you wish.

But I'm glad you are getting out with your friends. Doing that will put you back into the social scene and help you to feel not so depressed. I also find that hard workouts are emotional gold. Get involved with a fitness club of some sort. :) Well, keep in there.