[quote]Keep ranting and raving here, it is better thandoing it in front of others.
It is early days for you, I think, there will be lots of what seem to be hopeless days, but your life is not over and you will find a reason to live.
It takes time and in the meantime youneed to be sure to take careof yourself.
Hang in there, you will be OK. [/quote]

I have no choice, considering for some inexplicable reason i keep waking up every morning, no matter how much i wish otherwise every night when i goto bed. Living life for myself is one of the most distasteful prospects I can conceive of, but i don't have much choice on that front either. Right now I am living for my dogs and cat. they need me and seeing them happy when i get home is about the only thing that gives me any pleasure right now.