disney dad still happens. my 21 yr old came home last night and told me she was goign to florida with her dad. the same dad who won't do a thing for her otherwise. my 23 yr old and his gf are going as well. along with his *happy little family*. i am AMAZED at how angry adn hurt i am about this.

some of it is justified. in 2 seconds flat she changed her tune about him 180 degrees. clearly she can be bought. i am not getting in a biddign war with him. it would be VERY easy to do that.

i find myself jealous, envious, pissed, and hurt.

he NEVER did that stuff with our family...(all 33 years of it)
he's playing her for all it's worth. again. making a big show of it.
he can spend a ton of money renting a fricking van to bring them all there, a huge condo, etc. yet can't pay one bill for her and goes off on a rant if she asks.

they're out *having fun* while i'm here at home doing nothing.

i hate him for it and i am angry as shit about the way it's changed her whole attitude.

that's the reality. i'm not exactly proud of myself for feeling that way. i know i "should" feel differently. but being brutally honest. that is where i am. on one hand i am ticked at myself for buying into that. otoh, i know better.

ultimatly i am upset cus i thought i was so over it adn obviulsy i am far from it.

dammit

so there. my unvarnished naked truth.