I know this is going to tick some off and believe me it can tick me off too.
I think sometimes when I think I let him off too easy it's because I'm jealous, I have no one now and he has her. They have each other and I'm by myself, alone. I think a lot of my anger comes from that green eyed monster.
I'm not comortable with that thought but in some ways I'm proud of my growth in realizing a lot of my pain is self inflicted. NO, he is still a low life but he can't continually hurt me by being with her,that ship has sailed.
I need to get over it, I still obsess over them but I know I am now. How do you stop when you are your own company way too much? I need to get out of my head and into the world. How do you stop thinking about them, I try reading and watching tv but then some sappy commercial comes on and I see the dream and think THEY have it and I don't.
I put the word BELIEVE next to my TV because I believe I will have "it", better and more powerful and maybe he needed to get out of the way for me to find it.
I hate being jealous and I wasn't a jealous person before. These lessons I've learned though this poop stink!!!!!!!!!!
They might have it for now but I will have it for GOOD!