Thanks for the support. I agree that my heart and head are in two different places. I just am frustrated. It has been over a year and a half since he first left and it still feels somedays like it happened yesterday. The holidays don't help either- knowing he is out with friends at a party and I am home alone..again. It makes my mind wonder to places it shouldn't.
I just have to keep hanging on to the idea that things WILL get better it is just going to take a lot of time. This sucks..