Mfergel, I don't worship him at all. I see him for who he really is, a flawed man who needs constant approval. I am feeling much more hurt by my daughter's behavior, than by his. BTW, she is not a kid, she is 41 years old, but acts like a teenager half the time. It wouldn't bother me so much if she didn't make herself available to all of her friends, 24/7. I seem to be the only one that she doesn't have time for. She is actually a widow with 2 kids, so she does know what pain and loss is. I would hope that she would have enough empathy and concern to at least understand that I am going through a very difficult time and offer some support. I believe that if her friends knew how she treats me, they would no longer believe that she walks on water. It makes me very sad. I was there for her when her husband was dying and when she moved I spent many days helping her pack. So not only do I feel abandoned by my husband, but by my daughter too. BTW, he is not her father, so this has nothing to do with taking sides in the divorce. It just makes me worry that I am not very loveable or this all wouldn't be happening to me. Now I am really wallowing in self-pity again. Got to stop that and feel proud about how much I've accomplished without very much help.

Patty