do you KNOW how freeing it is to discover
i can be ME?
it's not about a girl being a [censored] after all!

its just saying...hey taryn (not really! i did NOT hear voices! ;) ) be you and like it. not in a stand offish way but in a 'im so content' kind of way.

it's about the fact that i like to wear hoodies and jeans all fall and NOT some tight boob showing shirt and being secure with that. it's knowing i like to listen to miley cirrus/hannah montana and singing the songs in the car with my kids.

it's about the fact that what i do for fun is fun activities with my kids, watching Grays Anatomy on tv, and tent camping. i like sporting events in real life but would rathing die watching them on tv. i like to spend an evening reading at home or sitting in my backyard by the fire (true, not a cliche), or having movie night with my kids and an old dvd. these are me and who i am in the real sense. nothing sexy about what i like but nothing fake either. being a [censored] is about not even batting an eye in wondering if theese interests are 'interesting' when talking to a guy!

being a [censored] is not bitchy after all!
its wearing my eyeliner the way like i like it and if you think it's too dark...dont look. its liking sushi, breaded shrip and frozen pizza instead of pretending to like salad and broiled fish.
it's eating coldcuts with mayo on white bread because i like it. and offering the same for a quick on the way out the door lunch and not apologzing that it's not roastbeef on a crossant.

it's fixing my own electrical issues within my ability and being happy with the results. but being willing to take help if the lights just wont go off. ;) and being thankful, but not indebted, for the help.

you know! i have been this way with every guy i havent cared the least bit about. one guy brought wine over and instead of washing out the dusty wine glasses or grabbing the dirty ones from the dish washer i said...oh yeah! wine!
um...we'll hve to drink from these coffee cups...my glasses are in the dishwasher. and we both laughed. that was me in the flesh...not trying to impress or be standoffish. just me.

i cant put this book down.

all my marriage i listened to riducle and BENT! whenever i could. what foolishness.
im SO happy to be the me i am and see how it works out in my life! you know what!?
it's going to work out great!

and...any of you guys who want to come over and bring me some wine...i'd love it! but from now on...you'll probably get it i a coffee cup and ill be wearing an oversized guy hoodie and tight jeans. im saving the tight shirt and black boots a bit!...make you work for them. :)

LOL.

off to a FUN taryn night!
playing uno with my kids while eating butter popcorn and wearing my tshirt and sweats.

its not sexy..but it's real and im comfortable with it!