I'm sure the "what should have beens" and "what could have beens" will attack us many times in the future. I understand why you're feeling crushed. I'm sure you'd dreamed for years of the day you'd have his baby. Now that dream is shattered - and more than shattered, is being lived-out by someone who is not you. That is so unfair.

I've often heard the best revenge is living well. I know how hard it is to live above the pity-parties. But I'm trying to be a party-pooper and not stay in the pity-parties. Much easier to type then to do.

For me, I've found playing music (now that stbEx gave me my instruments), journaling, and helping others who are having struggles often help me climb out of the pit of despair and find a few moments of hope.

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