Thanks so much guys :) I feel better today- this may sound odd but I actually feel like the betrayal is complete. This other life he was living, the lies, the fake I love yous, the woman taking over my life, it's all complete and I can FINALLY really start putting it behind me. I know this may sound crazy but I guess I was waiting for this day, waiting for the child to be born so I could finally say, "Ok that's it, it's done he has his life, it's really truly over. I was thrown aside but one day I will find a much better life than he could have ever given me and I instead of loathing this girl, pitty her cause I know the charm he lays on in the begining and now there is a poor innocent child in the middle. May he have really changed for their sakes."