There are many reasons I want more time, first I did see my kids a lot before the separation perhaps it was 30 minutes before they had to go somewhere, then all day Sunday, part of Sat before they went to a friends... but it was everyday that I had interaction with my kids. I am a very good dad, but I did need to spend more time with my three. The separation is still new and fresh and she will not sit down with me to schedule. I get them when I can.

Second, I have a lot to offer my kids and I see that more and more, I speaking of wisdom and advise. My 18 yo credits my talks with her for helping her choose the career she wishes to pursue. I have been the stable mind throughout this nightmare, my 16 yo, mommy's girl, now sees what her mom is doing and who she is.

My 10 yo son needs his dad, his is a boy's boy, chased his sister's friends with his pet rats last night. He wants and needs to do guy things and not with just anyone but with his dad. Boys need affirmation from their fathers more than you would ever believe, it is something I deal with as a son and part of my issues today.

And lastly, after Thursday night hell yes I want them more. Mom just went nuts on the 16yo for not cleaning her room. My daughter had just finished cleaning the rest of the house. Mom goes to school, does homework and sleeps. I just found out that she has not made dinner for weeks, no milk or bread for 4 to 5 days (she has $$$)... 18 yo(lives with me) took the 16 yo to the store. Mom's only concern is herself, this is from the kids not me.

As men we love our kids, that is why I get up and go to work 5 days a week so that I can provide for them. I showed it by always having milk and bread in the house, I'm the grocery shopper. My oldest who lives with me told the 16yo, "I went with the guy who makes Costco runs", she knows who will care for them. My 16 yo is thinking about coming to live with me... as long as the 10 yo comes too.