I emailed him and said there would be no man with us (I caved because I want to see our son) and asked how he was doing (since he was so upset when I dropped him off. Here was his response:

"It took him about 20 minutes after we got home for him to calm down. (He is still irritable) I HATE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO HIM OUT OF THE SELFISH AND UNSCRUPULOUS person you are.

I don't care if a guy is going with you or not now because L is spending the 4th with his father. I was trying to be nice and you had to play your games. Then when I saw how traumatized L was when he had to leave one parent (you) to go with the other (me), it just broke my heart and made me realize that I need to spend every holiday that I can with him. I speak from experience, our son is going to be emotionally f'ed up. You wanted this, well you got this. Enjoy.............."

Sometimes I feel like I should have stayed and been miserable. Seriously. Am I alone?