ok i am going to attempt to post here for some support, please if you are here to judge, or give me a hard time, please just please don't bother replying. i don't know how much more i can take.

some of you may know that there was a temporary stipulation of 50/50 visitation without prejudice signed last week drawn up between the 2 attorneys stating the following:
stbx would have child monday's and tuesday's and every other weekend friday saturday sunday. i would have child wednesday and thursday and every other weekend. child will be dropped off everyday at school and will be picked up at close of business. it took effect this past weekend mother's day weekend. the 1st weekend was with him, and i called my attorney and stated fine he can have the weekend, but i want mother's day. stbx attorney told him that i have the whole weekend. my paperwork states stbx had the weekend. it was a mess, b/c i didn't get the message until after 5pm that i actually had the weekend, child was already picked up by father. so instead of father being a stand up guy and calling me he takes child even though it was my weekend. i did get to see him mother's day.

so i found out that friday i would have to go out of town for 1 over night for training at work. i asked stbx if he wouldn't mind just for this week if i could take monday and tues. and he take wed thurs since i will be out of town those days. he refused. then i get a phone call from daycare that child was never dropped off on tues. by stbx. we didn't know where child was at this point. my attorney got a hold of stbx attorney the next day and stbx did not have a good excuse as to why child was not in daycare. needless to say i found out that since last weekend was technically my weekend i lost it and stbx gets child this weekend as well. i won't see my child until next wed.

i just can't believe that my 3 year old little boy has to be away from his mama for so long. stbx won't budge and work with me, he just takes all that he can get and more. he is still not working and hasn't contributed anything to son since feb.

my attorney said to relax and try and get thru it, it is just temporary he will never have 50/50. i am just trying to leave it up to god, and have faith and trust in him that when this is all said and done i will have my little boy and i can move past all this and on with my life. i miss him so much, it breaks my heart. i feel so defeated, i keep doing to cooperative thing, the responsible thing, and the deadbeat dad keeps getting chance after chance. i just want my primary custody and to move on. i am not expecting any child support he will forever be in the arrears. i just want my baby.

this is a man that has asked for primary custody, rehabilitative alimony, and for me to pay his attorney fees, but he won't work or contribute to child. and he has a drug and alcohol problem. i just don't know where to get anymore strength to get thru this.

everyone says, don't worry you live in florida under the circumstances you will get custody. i just don't know....