Done4,
I totally understand what you are going through. I cried many times during the first few months. I thought the world was over. I was wrong. I did it by surrounding myself with great suportive friends, supportive family members, a great therapist, and a caring doctor. I went from 220 pounds to 190. I looked great for a change. I have a 6 year old from this marriage, try explaining to a 6 year old why she now lives in 2 places. I felt bad for my daughter but realized I needed to get myself together to show her everything was going to be okay. Someday maybe I'll tell you what happened to me but I can tell you this. If he is as bad as you say he is. And he hasn't treated you fairly or respectfully, you deserve a better life. It will be scary. I was scared to death. But I was determined to come out of this a better person. and now after 2 years, I don't think I'm a better person without her, I know I am a better person. You will get there, don't give up, stay strong.