Thanks for your support. I will start really looking into my options. I feel like I gave him another chance and it didn't work, so now I can make this decision knowing that I did all I could do. But it is scary, I have four children ranging from 3 to 10. It scares me to death that I could end up losing custody of them, which he tells me all the time, because I am an unfit mother you know. Not. I ask myself if I want to be like his mom and be in this same position in 30 years and I do not. I know there has to be a better life out there than this. No one should have to live like this.