Hey, I can understand how you feel about the hurt and pain!My situation is alittle different (only touched the tip of the iceberg) but the same. I have thought and thought with all the ache and pain a heart can get.I believe it is without a doubt in your best interest to be the better person and get on with your life.You have tried, it has failed to reconsider.Don't beat yourself to a pulp! You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anybody else!I have thought of all the scenarios, what is going to happen when I see her with someone else? What will I feel when she is happy and kissing him? etc etc etc. It is killing my heart but I know someday, somehow, I will be ok.As of now her and my children will not talk to me and I don't blame them.But like I said, there are other circumstances.
Anyway I hope this helps alittle.
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