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You'll be fine. It's a good thing she showed her true colors before you let this go on for ANOTHER 10 years, 20 or more... and truly, did you envision living like this, in a stale smoke, caretaker role for another 20 or 30 years? [/quote]

every friend i talked to always asked those questions. Are you happy now? do you think you will be happy next year? And after i told my one friend i couldnt say D last night she told me she was sick over it. That i was self destructive.

I have no idea how the finances will shake out but at this moment she doesnt seem vindictive...at 'this' moment that is. And fact is if she is sharing a trailer with someone her expenses will be low. And i told her to get applying for SSI too but i guess she cant do that until we are legally divorced so she will have 'no income'.

i do feel better but i still feel like &&&&. I mean, she doesnt know the basic things about banking anymore and also she just told me she fell again this morning right into some electronics equipment we have on the floor. It's just sad and i hate it.

She apologized 100x about the transferring of money behind my back but admitted theres nothing she can do to take it back or correct it. She is really 'into' some aspects of this thought, i'm shocked she has a place to stay and even is thinking about some stuff now.