i guess i'm not doing too well at being mean....last night i got home, since the shrink was at 6 i said i gotta eat..do you wanna eat..she said no..but then when i started my dinner she went ahead and ate soup..felt sick after..so 20 min before the appt called off....then admitted to me every shrink appt she has she feels physically sick..i said why..she said because she had to face certain things (the D). So she left a message and the shrink called her back in a bit..she went into the kitchen, closed the door and cried but apparently what the shrink said helped her more than the past few months everything..so too bad they cant have phone sessions....since my wife is overwhelmed she said maybe my wife needs to go out and choose 1 or 2 doctors now where she will be moving so she doesnt feel like she has to do everything at once when she moves...and my wife asked me if she goes out a few days to her moms will i lock her out and say she abandoned me..i said no i wouldnt do that, thats not nice...she said she wanted something in writing.i said fine...then she asked why i'm being so nice to her...as nice as i was years ago....i said i've always been nice and helped you why wouldnt i keep on doing that....she said it was like i was relieved that we are getting D and can relax now...she's a pretty smart girl sometime isnt she? but i cant tell her yes i cant wait to get away from the smoking and depression you cause me...then finally i told her lets watch the old oprah show about quitting smoking...well 80% of it was how bad it is for you and the other 20 was that it's so hard to quit...it also had about the people around u how they get hurt so hopefully she realizes that now too..

so for some reason she thinks i'm treating her the best i have in a long time but i dont see it like that at all. I guess i'm biased though. Sorry for doing such a poor job being mean :)