im just trying to find the old me again. For a long time, I was someone that I did not want to be...something that was against my nature...and now I feel like I'm back.

Just trying to be myself, you know?

For the record, we gave each other a HUGE hug after lunch, and she kissed me on the cheek and said "It's so nice to finally see you again." For some reason, I didnt feel all wierded out by THAT...but the thought of DATING...well...I explained all that.

I dunno...probably filing would start the process, but I seriously doubt I'd feel more at ease about getting into a relationship. I've already told myself NO DATES until at least 6 months after the divorce is final...if for no other reason than to allow me time to deal with any leftover grief or feelings, etc.

I'm definately the "slow and steady" type....I dont like to just rush into anything at all...and I've always been VERY patient when it comes to relationships. I prefer to take things pretty slowly...I NEVER just jump in headlong and risk making a mistake I'll regret later.

I much prefer to first get to know the girl very well. I'm a firm believer in friends FIRST...and it takes time to develop a true friendship.