I thank you all for your kind words. This has been the hardest week of my life, but tomorrow is her last test. My hope is that she calls me to let me know how it went, and perhaps to talk about us. I just have to wait and see I guess.

After she told me marriage counseling would not do any good (as she says she is no longer in love with me), I made an appointment with a psychologist. That is still two weeks away.

The "funny" thing is, my depression stemed from the fight to keep us afloat. There is a term for that type of depression but I am blanking on it. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel with her graduation, but now the future is so uncertain it is killing me.

I just hope she is willing to discuss us after her stress has eased a bit.