So.......

Your plan is to put your life and your needs on hold until you see what she plans to do or wants to do?

Why on earth do we decide to put our self esteem and our very lives in the hands of another person?

I understand the desire to make things work, and to keep your marriage together, but it takes two, and it's unfortunate when one decides to let it go, and there's no choice on the other side........but in this situation, you need to make some tough decisions based on what you're gonna do without them.

Of course, you can decide to wait and see what they decide, and let your future ride on that too.

But in MHO......you need to realize that she isn't exactly looking at what's best for you right now. So if you don't do that......it ain't happening.

You deserve better. You really do. You are worth more than this. I am not saying to give up. I am just saying to take care of yourself, and then see once you're outside of the emotional cloud that you're in what you really want to happen.

Make yourself a priority........and don't make someone else a priority that only looks at you as an option.