I haven't posted in a while. But now I am on my own and can't stand it. At first, my wife wanted flat out divorce, she says she doesn't love me anymore, and has felt this way for some time. It stems from being inattentive to one another. I say it's due to kids, work, and the other stresses of everyday live.
Fortunately for me, she thought better of the divorce option, and agreed to a trial separation. It has been a little over one month now, which I know is a short time, but I am having a difficult time dealing with this.
I suppose in a separation you shouldn't discuss the relationship, that meaning give her time alone, and not rouffle any feathers. However, when I talk to her on the phone or in person when picking up the kids, I can't help myself and start asking questions about how she feels and what is going on in her head.
This leads to heated discussions, not arguments or fights, but all I hear is how she doesn't miss me, and that she is enjoying time alone. She also says that she has no wanting to get back together, and it makes me wonder if I am wasting my time and emotions.
All I want is the opportunity to show her how I can love her again. This experience has been a real eye-opener and makes me realize what it is that I am losing. She is upset also, just for other reasons than being without me.
I don't know...I sick of screwing up when I'm around her. I know I should be strong and find happiness in my "exile". But it's hard to be happy when the life you want is the very thing you are being denied.
Somebody please post a reply about a successful separation and how to turn things around. I feel as though there is no hope, and I am just waiting on death row for the warden to escort me to the chamber