after only one month of official separation, my "wife" has decided she can no longer do this. The more I am away from her, the more she realizes she is through with me. Today she said she no longer wants to try. No more therapy, no more waiting for things to change. I'm disgusted, heartbroken, disappointed, sad, furious, confused, angry, desperate, and, oh yeah, did I mention I'm in a real dark place right now? Rejection sucks, I'm not a bad person, I think it could work. Apparently love does not prevail. I guess I now have to post on "life after divorce" because some people would rather give the f>>k up than work things out.
Life as I have known it is now over..Where the hell do you begin to cope? For now, all I have is my tiny one bedroom I have been exiled to, and a 30 pack of Lager, which will be gone by the time I hit the "submit" button.
Call me stupid or irrational, but the cold void of reality is something overwhelming to deal with. The downward spiral spins faster and faster...