Downward,
Sorry that you have reached this stage. I would like to point out a few things though.....

""no more waiting for things to change""... This applies to you too, you need to look forward to things that will be and not dwell on what will not be.

""Rejection sucks, I'm not a bad person""... No you are not and don't forget that!

""Life as I have known it is now over""... Life as you have become used to it may be over, but life is not over.

It is a tough time for us all but I can asure you it will get better and the many good people on this forum will do the best they can to help you.