Divorce Support Forums: going back

Two years ago my husband had an affair and asked me for a divorce. I was torn apart. Our relationship was not perfect by any means but I loved him with all my heart, even though now that I look back on our years together I can clearly see how very unhappy I was. He was and still is a very controling person with a very strong temper. But I on the other hand am very co-dependent and still am. I live my life to please others especially him. Well it was a hard road but I made it. I moved out of our home and got an apartment worked two jobs and started over. I bought a townhome mind you I did not get anything from the divorce I did it all on my own. Well things did not work for him and his new woman and so he started calling me again and naturally we started seeing each other and everything was so nice I really saw some major inprovments in him and I was falling in love all over again. Well long story short after two years I moved back in with him and he is somewhat trying in his own way, but quite honestly I have never been more unhappy. I come to relize that I don't love him and that I really was so content with my life on my own and I don't know whtat to do. Because you see I am still feeling like he needs me and for some reason I can't bring myself to hurt him. Also if we split now I know we will have to brake all ties and he is my best friend