Divorce Support Forums: Need Help

Like many of the posts in this section, I am recently separated from my wife - about 5 weeks- and I don't know if I can stand it. She told me she wanted a divorce because the way I was treating her was considered emotional abuse (it was). To me the way I treated her was normal. I say this because it's what I saw my parents doing to each other all through my childhood. I'm not making excuses- I realize now that I treated her like s@#% and I accept responsibility for what I've done. Anyway, we agreed on a 6 month trial separation and I moved out. i have no where to go and my job keeps me moving for 1-2 weeks at a time so renting a place is not really economical. So when in town I camp for weeks at a time.
She has told me that she is not willing to give me another chance but she can't "pull the trigger" on signing and sending the divorce papers. Which makes me think there's a chance? I don't want the divorce and am doing everything possiible to change (been in therapy for 6 weeks now and making progress)for myself. I am struggling immensly with the no contact rule. It's easy for her, she has the house and our friends and all I have is work. Any words of advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated. Thanks