mbrown3
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Reged: 02/20/07
Posts: 271
Loc: Lake Norman NC
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My anniversary was supposed to be tuesday. Monday night i took 7 kalodapins, 12 cymbaltas, and 4 ambien
I thought i was doing well until the looming anniversary, court date next week and divorce finalization the week after just became what i thought was too much to bear.
I realize my mistake and still feel depressed, however I now have more tools to deal with my anxitey and depression. i was admitted for 72 hour constant suicide survaliance. Please use this forum or any other outlet to steer away from the rout I tried to take
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God Gave Us Mountains So That We Could Learn How To Climb!
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Motor-Head
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Reged: 02/07/08
Posts: 594
Loc: 10,000 RPM
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Thank God you survived
I am sure there are many people that care about you even when you think there are none.
Hopping for good recovery for you man
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cantbelieveit02
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Reged: 01/01/08
Posts: 60
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I would like to help. I have some free time on my hands. I live in Florida can I come TALK to you. Anything, PM me if you would like to talk.
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Cari115
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Reged: 06/11/07
Posts: 1788
Loc: Not where I thought I'd be
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I’m so sorry that you reached that point where you thought that your life was not worth it any more. Keep on fighting the good fight, it will be worth it in the end. Stay strong.
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She's figured out all her doubts were someone else's point of view - Green Day
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Books29
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Reged: 02/20/08
Posts: 321
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You are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry that you are in so much pain but know that you WILL get through this and it will get better.
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malone
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Reged: 12/30/07
Posts: 1865
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Hi Megan
I'm so pleased you're okay. Everyone here has felt really bad about what they're going through. Believe us when we tell you that feeling bad doesn't last forever. You're really young and have a great and happy life in front of you. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you do.
We'll all look after you - just tell us when you're feeling bad. I've come to this forum lots of times in the early days feeling really rotten - and people here have always made me feel better - enough to carry on again.
You can message any of us anytime. There's always someone around to talk to and help you.
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scbeck
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Reged: 12/29/07
Posts: 823
Loc: New Brunswick Canada
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I don't know how you made it to a hospital and under the proper care but you made it through the worst time in your life and you were strong enough to survive. NEVER FORGET THAT. Your depression won't go away by itself, that would be like saying diabetes will go away by itself with out doing anything about it. But by the same token this is a medical condition and it didn't happen because of anything you did wrong. What happened is a symptom of the condition. You survived that symptom and now you make it one step at a time till the symptoms start to fade with the help of medication and support from counsellors and friends and us here if you need us.
I am so glad you came here and I just hope you will come away with 1/4 of some of the hope and friendship I have found here when I have been at my lowest. People I have never met and most likely may never meet have been the most understanding and patient when I have been so screwed in the head I just keep beating my head on that brick wall and making the same mistake over and over. Even then I am still accepted and even welcomed for the advice I can give from my experiences. I know a few weeks from now you will be able to supply someone on the verge of making that same decision that you did with your insight and the benefit of experience.
Good luck and you can always PM me or anyone anytime you just want to chat.(I have lived with depression for years and my stbx also attempted suicide a couple of times so I have some personal experience with the issues)
Christine
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This is the first day of the rest of my life. Or maybe tomorrow will be.
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derkacz78
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Reged: 05/07/08
Posts: 190
Loc: MIchigan
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Thank god that you survived! I have thought about suicide for some time now. Last night I was really close to doing it. So close, that I could taste the blood. I came here at 4 am. I vented and cried while I was typing, and now 12 hours later, I am happy that I didn't do it.
We are all here for you. There are more here for you than you think, so place a smile on your face for a few seconds, because I care a lot about you.
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liberated
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Reged: 10/02/07
Posts: 550
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[quote]Thank god that you survived! I have thought about suicide for some time now. Last night I was really close to doing it. So close, that I could taste the blood. I came here at 4 am. I vented and cried while I was typing, and now 12 hours later, I am happy that I didn't do it.
We are all here for you. There are more here for you than you think, so place a smile on your face for a few seconds, because I care a lot about you. [/quote]
THIS is the kind of thing that gives hope...next time you are in the pit, remember this instance and just hold on for 12 hours...
I'm glad both of you are here today! :)
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Kimberley
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emsgirl
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Reged: 11/06/07
Posts: 251
Loc: Illinois
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I am glad you are here today. Please know that we are all here for you any time of day or night. I know there are others that have attempted it too here on the fourm. I know the thought crossed my mind several times, but I never acted on it. Don't feel bad or embarrassed at what happened. You will learn and grow from it.
take care and don't forget come here often and post often it does help.
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Do not make someone a priority when you are only an option to them!
www.myspace.com/emsgirl538
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Jada
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Reged: 06/02/07
Posts: 3240
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Get yourself into counseling to deal with your depression and suicidal thoughts.
Suicide is not the answer.
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tookway2much
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Reged: 03/31/08
Posts: 627
Loc: Going toward the light!
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Thank God, he has a perfect plan for you and death wasn't in it. I'm so very sorry. Times are hard right now, but I promise you things will get easier.
Do you have children or family near by? Would you like to come stay in the country? Until you are stronger.
Please don't ever try something that stupid again. Been there done that. I felt really stupid afterwards.
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I don't worry about the people in my past. There is a reason they are not in my future.
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EZmark
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Reged: 06/04/07
Posts: 292
Loc: Florida
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My friend you mention God in your signature. We don't know what the long term plan is and it's not soup yet. Lots more to go in and cooking before the final result. There is much worse, I'm sure you saw some of it in the hospital. You are alive now because you are not supposed to die like that. The same fire that melts butter also forges steel. Steel yourself for the pain, it will make you stronger and God probably wants you to have that strength for something one day. I know how lonely and hurtful and unfair it is and how utterly helpless you are, but think of people who endured the holocaust, or cancer survivors, paraplegics, missing children, and fight. Get angry. Get drunk. Whatever it takes. Fight like hell, and survive. It took a long time to get to where you are and you've got a long time to go. It's not soup yet.
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Clementine
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Reged: 10/07/07
Posts: 508
Loc: East Coast USA
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My prayers are with you. You did a smart thing by getting help imediately. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporay problem. Do not do that. You can & will work thru this - please so not do this EVER - My love, Clem
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The way I see it..If you want the rainbow, you've gotta put up with the rain... d.parton
Love, Clem
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kent
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Reged: 06/13/07
Posts: 2968
Loc: a melted glacier
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I am so happy that you failed. This was a great blessing. A chance to fail, to find a new balance.
Do what you need to so that you can find a guide post. We all need a guide post in the darkness.
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Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.
Dr. Seuss
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aspect
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Reged: 01/08/08
Posts: 530
Loc: Texas
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All you have to do is say the word and I imagine just about anyone here will PM you their phone number.
Take that route well before you decide to pop yourself full of pills.
No amount of pain you are feeling is worth ending your life. It doesn't matter what the circumstances of your divorce is.
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movingon2
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Reged: 12/06/07
Posts: 209
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"God Gave Us Mountains So That We Could Learn How To Climb!"
BIG BIG HUG FOR YOU!... "Sorry, squeezed too hard"…you are going to be fine...God is on your side.
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PinkRose
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Reged: 07/09/07
Posts: 1754
Loc: Not sure!!!
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[quote]All you have to do is say the word and I imagine just about anyone here will PM you their phone number.
Take that route well before you decide to pop yourself full of pills.
No amount of pain you are feeling is worth ending your life. It doesn't matter what the circumstances of your divorce is. [/quote]
Sorry to quote you Aspect, but those were my exact thoughts.
We are all here for you.
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I'm a living sunset... there's light in my bones. You can push me to the edge, but my will is stone!
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tookway2much
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Reged: 03/31/08
Posts: 627
Loc: Going toward the light!
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Good Morning,,, Just wanted to check on you. How is everything looking, through clearer eyes? Just a reminder: We are still here, for you.
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I don't worry about the people in my past. There is a reason they are not in my future.
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