Divorce Support Forums: More Confused...More Frustrated...Angrier

OKay...So today my husband treats me like garbage in the morning when I'm trying to get dressed for work. "You don't seem very enthused...what's wrong with you, do you love me?"

Then as I'm leaving he's like - don't just walk without talking to me - I keep going. He has a "fight" with the screen door - screaming at me to come and open the door. I admit - I called him a bad name - I shouldn't have - and he comes running out of the house with this look of pure rage on his face..."Yeah, that's right - you better get out here."

Next thing I know he's blowing up my cell. "Call me, it's...whatever time...you better call me." Another message a few minutes later..."I don't know wtf your problem is but you better call me before I do something."

I don't call him - until later in the morning. He tells me he wants a divorce and until we seperate he'll sleep downstairs, we don't have to talk etc. Fine I say - whatever - just leave me alone.

Then he calls me, hour or so later, to tell me about an appointment I have tomorrow, "Hi sweetheart, your doctor's office called and you have an appointment tomorrow. Okay...I love you."

Now seriously - how in the hell am I supposed to believe someone who stormed out of the house with a look of death on his face, blew up my cell phone - silently threatening to harm me or destroy my stuff - then call me and tell me he loves me?

What is going on? How exactly do you get the backbone to just walk out? I'm not afraid of leaving my stuff - I'm not afraid to rebuild. I guess what I'm most afraid of is 1 - being alone again but more so than that...and this is crazy what happens if in the future - I end up with someone who's worse than he is now?

That prospect scares the hell out of me worse than being with him now in some ways.

How crazy is that?