PinkRose
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Reged: 07/09/07
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So sorry Mr.Revenge. I really hope that things get resolved
for you soon. Thinking of you.
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I'm a living sunset... there's light in my bones. You can push me to the edge, but my will is stone!
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Mr.Revenge
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Reged: 04/28/08
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Thank you PR,
but screw this crap. I'm so tired, in so many ways.
I'm praying I finally get to go to sleep, but don't wake up. Sorry, but I have had MORE than enough of this divorce injustice that to me has become Cruel and Unusual Punishment.
Could I have committed adultery with one of HER family members and been rewarded an income, health benefits, 50% of 401K, and kept EVERYTHING she ever owned???
Fuggit. I've tried. Burned out so badly. I was played like a fiddle. Shame on me!!
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saamrodi
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Reged: 06/14/07
Posts: 2894
Loc: here
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[quote]Thank you PR,
but screw this crap. I'm so tired, in so many ways.
I'm praying I finally get to go to sleep, but don't wake up. Sorry, but I have had MORE than enough of this divorce injustice that to me has become Cruel and Unusual Punishment.
Could I have committed adultery with one of HER family members and been rewarded an income, health benefits, 50% of 401K, and kept EVERYTHING she ever owned???
Fuggit. I've tried. Burned out so badly. I was played like a fiddle. Shame on me!! [/quote]
.....and sometimes those that feel the most, hurt the longest, and hang in there till you just want to take yourself out of the game....are the most precious rare jewels in our time....because our hearts are true and intentions real.
So, youve been knocked flat on your butt. Get through this and all thats left is to get up and dust yourself off. Lowest points can be a beginning.
In general, I agree with Confuscious and knife fight.
Hang in there bud
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"A man must not deny his manifest abilities, for that is to evade his obligations." ~W.F.~
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mrpat
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Reged: 09/12/07
Posts: 2617
Loc: Michigan
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Rev, I have been where you are and live it everyday. I got past giving up after about a year or so while going through the process you find yourself in. I love my ex wife( not sayin you do) and she hates me. Her hatred lasts a lifetime, I've seen it before in action. So, I'm faced with loving someone who hates me for the rest of my life. I cna't allow myself to give up, I can't allow my rage to surface. It is a rage that could burn a thousand cities destroying everything and anything in it's path. I know I would feel better to release it and be done with it but what would come after keeps me in check. I had a shrink ask me if I'd like to take it out on the other man, so I could understand that controlling it is the only way to silence the rage that wants to destroy the lives that took the light from my eyes and made me pray to never wake again. Rev at our lowest point such as you find yourself in……… this is when we choose which way to go. Where we belong, who we matter to and who we must survive for. I am divorced, I have survived and kept the rage in check but it didn’t just magically go away. It remains and I have to force myself to deal with it daily. Find your strength to control your feelings of giving up and never waking again, cause there are more emotions and actions you will need to control even when the divorce is done. Your survival instincts will kick in again and these thoughts of giving up WILL pass. Be ready for the emotions that come next. Learn from this time, a time of finding the inner strength to carry on. It WILL be the tool that keeps the later emotions that are directed at hurting others, not fearing the consequences for the guilty or innocent effected by them in check.
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People don't care how much you know.........until they know how much you care.
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Mr.Revenge
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Reged: 04/28/08
Posts: 323
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mrpat,
Thanks man. I actually had a decent weekend. Did a lot of "guy stuff" (took down a 70' tree and cut it up and dragged branches/stacked logs) with my buddy. I can hardly move again (this volunteer hard labor is either keeping me in shape or beating the hell out of me).
Anyway, good distraction, + my daughter got back from Disney World last night and I got to spend the whole day with her...how re-energizing it is to be back with my girl!!!
It just seems like this whole divorce process is so damn slow...I didn't want it at first, finally succumbed to the understanding that it must be, but just can't see the end...and the whole time, I am bleeding in so many ways.
Just can't wait for this to end...I will do the "Irish Jig" on the final Decree, and I don't dance!!!!!
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PinkRose
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Reged: 07/09/07
Posts: 1753
Loc: Not sure!!!
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Rev, things will get better and keep doing the Irish jig!!
I am thinking of you. Are you sure that you don't dance???
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I'm a living sunset... there's light in my bones. You can push me to the edge, but my will is stone!
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Mr.Revenge
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Reged: 04/28/08
Posts: 323
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PR,
I DEFINITELY don't dance...much like Elaine on "Seinfeld"...but that won't stop me. I don't sing either, but again, I do anyhoo!!!
Hope all is well with you also. Thanks for caring.
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