hopefull
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Reged: 10/07/07
Posts: 164
Loc: Michigan
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Finally we both went to our attorney's and I thought with what my husband makes, the life style we lived, my Fibromylagia and Bioplar both very well controlled I'm super responsible with meds. and I'm even eager to help ladies look 10-20 yrs younger with botox and fillers. these two diagnoses could be because of him because it all started 4 years ago when he emotionally made me get a abortion. I walked out and said I can't do it..He pressured me and then is was too late for pills, I has to do a physcial one.. 10 days later I made a suicidal gester ( wine & valium) Through it up..didn't want to die wanted the pain to go away..In Psych ward x 10days I had the time, the house, the money to take care of another child. As a doctor he was concerned about my age and pain meds I was taking for dental work and then he pours me wine to calm me down. He was angry that I wasn't trusting of his advise. So I got him off my back and with not a clear head I did it with so much regret..Since then our relationship has been down the tubes. Post partum was real bad and that when they discovered by bypolar (my brother committed suicide age 25 because he was bipolar..It in the family. I am controlled butI do have cycles especially when ultra stressed.. The lawyers were sympathic and I don't want to play the sick card. But It's sounds like I won't have my husbands support for my new business and it will take longer than expected. He makes 300,000.00++ per year And it seems I'n not getting no 2/3'rds. Once I make my own money I don't want his. I want to make sure my daughter is taken care of..I'm very well read in the nursing field especially psychology and medications for all types of aliments. anyway sorry to bust your evening.. I'm in a BP moment . I will explain more..I want you all to have a nice evening...I thought I would a decent life a head it sounds worse..I don't want to stay married for the money ..I may end up doing suicide if we stay.. Have a great weekend. I'll update later..Gigi you've been a Saint...Please don't beat me up now..I don't think I can take anymore bad news ..How about tomorrow..:)
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tiredofnagging
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Reged: 05/09/08
Posts: 180
Loc: Las Vegas, NV USA
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I have been recently diagnosed with bipolar and was misdiagnosed for many years with just depression. That runs in my family. My mom was depressed and narcissistic, and my estranged sister is probably beyond even me and doesn't know it. So I am now in therapy and am on new meds, and I am feeling more stable, especially considering all the crap I'm going through. I spent 5 days in a psych ward for having merely mentioned the thought of suicide.
First of all my wife and I just separated, I guess she had enough of my mood swings. She says it was for her own sanity but she loves me and would want to get back together once I've been stable for a while. I have an 8YO daughter whom I no longer see on a daily basis. Fortunately they moved only a half hour away so I do get to see her. Funny thing is, I don't miss my wife too much and I think she feels better without the craziness of me not holding jobs, etc... At least for now, I'm not minding the freedom.
However I'm not working and because of the wonderful economy our house will either be short sold, auctioned or gone into foreclosure. Now it will be crappy credit time. I was in a car wreck several years ago and have been in pain ever since, seeing a pain mgmt doctor and being adjusted and medicated. To top it off, I was in another car wreck this past week (neither accident was my fault) and I will be having the neck surgery I've been needing and trying to avoid. Fact is I'm scared. Fortunately my wife agreed to keep me on her health insurance.
I know I will win an insurance settlement but the problems I see down the road is keeping any of it. Will the mortgage co come after my assets? What about the cost of surgery and doctors fees? Will insurance want to be reimbursed? Will my wife be demanding a share? (I wouldn't have any problem there because it will help out our daughter) So will there be any left for little old me? I am in the house, unemployed and will soon need to rent an apartment. Seems that credit can prevent you from even doing that....
So am I having fun? Sh1t. Nope and wouldn't even know it IF I was. Ain't depression a b1tch???
Hopefull, I KNOW how you you feel (except for the pregnancy part) I wish you the best and hope things get better for all of us out there.
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This Too Shall Pass
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hopefull
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Reged: 10/07/07
Posts: 164
Loc: Michigan
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It was amazing..when they took me off antidepressants..I was not a low as i have been.. They say antidepressant can cause suicidal ideation sometime more frequently in teenagers and I was on those for three years and wondered why I wasn't better. So now I'm on some anxiety meds, bp meds and ritalin for ? ADD but it helps the depression part. It's not only given for ADD.. It does boost my mood when I'm in a low...better than the anitdepressants did. I do not feel stigmatiazed, I'm very high functioning and I don't know how many people I've met who are very successful in their careers that are on something. But If at some point I can get off ( when the stress of D decreases) it would be nice not to be dependant.. And I hate when people think your not a good enough parent. I'm proud to be my daughters parent and I'm told I go above and beyond for her and Its because I love her so much..She keeps me sane. All that is necessary for raising great kids is just being good enough and being there. Thanks for sharing your BP history I've met many wonderful people with our dx, we are just more passionate. Have a great day and take care.
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dexmeister
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Reged: 06/26/08
Posts: 342
Loc: Moving in 6 Months
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I thought this was going to be about partying it up tonight. I want to live it up vicariously through someone until I am ready to do it myself...Oh, what the hell. I am going out tonight. I don't know where yet, some bar though.
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I never knew what I was made of until now.
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SwedishChef
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Reged: 08/20/08
Posts: 134
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I'm working. :(
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If he can have her, I don't want her.
I gave her the ring, now I'm giving her the finger.
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hopefull
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Reged: 10/07/07
Posts: 164
Loc: Michigan
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Sorry for the bummer I wish there was a man cave again or somthing interesting besides health issues..what can you guys come up with. Didn't they used do that ...have on line fun with horsederves (whatever) drinks , music, fun, sport whatever
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