Divorce Support Forums: Husband wants divorce after 23 yrs and our busines

My husband informed me in June that he could no longer be married to me after 23 years. He told me to get out of the house we purchased and have lived in for 13 years. He told me to go live 210 miles away with my sister where I am sleeping on a couch. He asked how long I needed to get out and i told him at least 3 months. I retired from hotel management 4 years ago after 18 years of hard work to help him build our successful locksmith and access control company. The 4 years I was off after retirement I could not keep up with the books becase of severe depression and PTSD. I seemed to lose my identity. He has been horribly abusive, emptionally and verbally for at least 15 years. He basically abandoned me as my mental health declines and my Addison's disease worsened due to stress. He chose to ignore the obvious signs and spent every thur-sun with his close group of friends.
So many times, he would call and say he was on his way home and we wouldn't see him until the wee hours of the morning if at all. My lack of keeping up with the books has cost us money to hire an IRS attorney but the money is availale. He claims he is no longer going to be finacncially responsible for me. I'm in the process of applying for social security disability but have no income other than that. He removed my name from our business account even though we were incoprorated. I found a copy of the signature card and I am the the 51% majority, stockholder. Can a bank do this? (Wellsfargo) He just changed the business to a sole proproitorship and I'm afraid it's all his now. We live in Texas which is a community proprty state. He has spent nights at God knows where and always put his friends in front of our family. My sons are grown now, but I should have left long ago. He has a severe alcoholism/cocaine problem but is completely functional at work. Hw truly believe that once he files he gets everything and maybe he's right.

At the age of 47, the drinking and drug use don't seem to affect him at all, only me. I grew up in a similar situtation, so it's all I know. He recently threw his boots at me amd messed up my bad knee again. I have had to beg for every cent he has given me. He's a control freak that doesn't love me but wants to control me from afar. He promised to leave whil I spent 3 months getting the books caught up, but when he came home he would unleashe the most demon like creulety on me. I screwed up, I've told everyone, I asked God and him for forgiveness because I forgave him everytime he abused me. I've tried to committ suicide twice and my depression is scarry. I miss Austin, though I was not allowed to leave the house. Will I lose my share of the business even though I haven't been paid since 2003? Will I lose my home and contents? I had to leave for fear of my life. He pulled one of his many guns and was so drunk he shot the dresser. I called the police but me and the boys couldn't write down on our repports that he waw drunk because he would lose his license. Boy did I pay the price after the police left. Why he kicked me out is beyound me. I never questions his actions, places where he was or even the fact that my 20 year old son and a I have seen his van at the neighborhood drunk's (female - her husband left her because of her drinking problem)over night the lst two months I was there. She's dumber than a box of rocks, and pure skank. He swore he wasn't sleeping with her, just drinking. Give me a break. I'm just scared to lose everything and I only want my fair half. Many people have told me if he were a real man, he would have left. I'm terrified of him even though he doesn't hit so I guess I have a true case of battered wive's syndrome. My spirit has long since been broken and my dreams shattered. Sadly, my hearts the most. He's happy, contantly partying and could care less about me and the fact that I'm living on Dollar General soup. Where do I start with no income? I can't even afford to see my dr. and get my meds. I have no insurance but he does. Any help or advice ouls be helpful. I'm afraid the depression is going to get the best of me.

Thank you.
Tammy
lovestrucksrv@gmail.com