hi im heidi and im new to all this too. my husband walked out and me and our 4 kids,found out he was doing steroids and has a girlfriend....i have a restraining order against hm as he made4 some crazy threats and remarks a few weeks ago...now he is telling me he loves me and if he stopped se4eing the girlfriend would i take him back....i am still madly n love with him but i know i shouldnt b....im lost and any advise would help